| Goodtimes |
[Mar. 5th, 2006|08:34 pm] |
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| | AC/DC - Highway To Hell | ] |
So this weekend wasn't so bad.. im going to miss this place when i transfer.. definitely have to come bak and visit.. so im applyin to fordham univ, hunter college, suny albany, and suny stony brook.. I WANT TO GET INTO FORDHAM THo! I believe that I can do it :) .. lately my days have been really good.. like pancake night.. BINGO!.. going to the movies.. chick flick nights.. coldstone.. IHOP! .. haha today Ash and I went to IHOP.. couldn't find it tho.. went to the wrong end of the beach.. so i roll down my window.. and start screamin at this guy.. IM LIKE YO DO U KNO WHERE IHOP IS? lol he couldn't roll down his window so he had to pull it down from the top.. too funny.. guess u had to have been there.. mmmm but it was yummy.. pigs in a blanky!.. so awesome news i go home in 5 days woooot! lol still have to buy my ticket errrr.. i can't wait to see Mark and his familY!! and my friends and family at home!!! but but on Tuesday is the SILVERSTEIN CONCERT!! AHHHHH!!! and on Wednesday my friend Steve is comin to visit... and THEN ON SATURDAY MEHILA AND CASTRINA ARE GETTIN RETARDED YESSSSS! haha so im excited.. fun and stressful week.. well BAK to studyin.. cuz im getting A's this semester bitches!
Christina Marie |
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| 2O FUCKIN 4!!!!! |
[Jan. 15th, 2006|10:25 pm] |
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omg 24 was awesome! kiefer sutherland is my future husband.. even tho hes like 37 years old.. lol.. hey age doesnt matter.. right?! neways.. havent been feeling too well the past 30 hours... horrible lower abdominal pain.. my amaaaaaaaazing friend ashley took me over to the hospital today .. holy fuck they kept us there for 5 hours... NEVER AGAIN! i was violated by a man with the jaws of life .. LMAO.. and there was an attack of the jellys.. lol ((ash ud only kno about that)) HAHA! anyways.. i had a big ass needle go into my side HOLY CRAP!.. she's like its only going to sting for a second.. LIAR!!!!! i couldnt even lift myself up from the bed after that.. seriously there was a tear comin down.. ha.. they also thought i was 24 cuz they're slow/retarded hicks.. ya... plus that place isnt sterile for shit.. ogod they took blood too.. and now im all drugged up.. GOODTIMES! hmm kinda nervous cuz my buddy hasnt come yet.. ya NOT GOOD.. but whatever.. tomorrow i find out if i stay here at coastal or go back home.. sucks so much.. ugh.. well off to rest cuz im still in pain :(
*christy* |
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| lalala |
[Jan. 11th, 2006|10:28 pm] |
ok so i realized i suck at poker... i only lost $20 but stillllllllll! ugh oh well.. played wit nick, ben, and chad.. ben won! urh! ya so today i was a bum.. until 3.. love my philosophy teacher by the way.. her name is renee.. like mom... weird.. i can tell this is going to be a really interesting class.. so ya tomorrow im going to hunt down mr.shelly and be like YOU FOOL HEAR IS MY WORK NOW CHANGE MY GRADE!
...... wow im really bored... watchin my turtle jimmy swim around..
i miss home.. and the cruz family :(
*christy* |
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| tooo early |
[Jan. 10th, 2006|10:56 am] |
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ugh water was turned off in the fuckin dorms! WHAT FOOOLS! im about to head over to blakes house... shower up over there and then i have a busyyy ass day cuz class starts tomorrow.. what fun.. thank god its at 3 and only one class! ew i dreamed of the one we do not speak of.. lol sounds like harry potter haha..ya but anyway.. in my dream we were gettng along and then hes like i think we need to have sex.. and gives that look that he gives.. cant describe it.. and then i look into his eyes and give him this sad lost look.. like how could you do that to me kinda thing.. and then hes like whats wrong... and then i wake up.. ya hm good times.. i feel more hate than anything right now.. well off to blakes!
*christy* |
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| cant sleep! |
[Jan. 10th, 2006|03:27 am] |
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| |  determined | ] |
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| | Bayside:: "Hello Shitty" | ] |
wow i havent written in this thing in soooo long! crazy! anyway so much has happened since last april.. im now back at coastal carolina university.. im trying to make the best of it now that i have NOTHING to worry about at home. After talkin to my father the other day and just from SHITY recent events I trust absolutely noone. How can i? Everytime I try to.. I just get hurt. So Fuck Everyone cuz nobody gives me a fuckin reason to trust them. There are like four people that I know I can trust and depend on. The world we live in is so fuckin sad.. wish people were different.. But I've learned from this. Now I won't give someone the opprotunity to hurt me like that again. I can't.. I refuse to! It's a new year and the best time to get out of my bad habits. You'll see cuz Christy will be a different person when she comes home. Anyway.. I miss my new home! marks! I am so greatful that his mom basically adopted me. I love that woman! Well I should try to get some sleep.. loooong day tomorrow!
*christy* |
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| great moooood |
[Mar. 26th, 2005|07:09 pm] |
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| | yellowcard - way away | ] |
the other night was soooooooooooooo much fun!!!!!!! i loved it! we got kicked out of the movies again.. lol i guess i was too loud or maybe it was bc we were movie hopping.. hmm.. dunno.. i went to the movies wit ekka, dan, and rob.. turns out the BE KOOL is shity... so we tried to see the ring 2 which didnt go well.. then we walked around white plains.. and went to the mall to help them look for jobs.. EWWW ROB LICKED MY FACE! lol gross.. ekka kept saying n***** in front of black ppl lol i love you ekka..
last night i went to marky marks and lechugas casa.. we watched moviesssss.. "LOOK ITS JESUS".. MARKKKKK~ then we stayed up till 540.. nat i love your massages! we had fun talks about sex and positions and vibrators lol..i love those two!
today im off to see grandma and my mommy and drewww... i spoke to chrissipoo and he was helping me out wit my issues.. thank you! im so confused about school.. like whether or not i should stay in ny or move to florida or south carolina.. not sure..
well im outttt.. think dan and rob are coming down to chill tomorrow .. not sure.. ekka i think ur man hates me.. lol
**tina butt** |
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| The Day The Asshole Dumped Me |
[Jan. 28th, 2005|11:51 pm] |
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| |  lonely | ] |
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| | k-ci & jojo- all my life | ] |
well i have a fever and a headache. im speechless right now. im like losing my mind. i'm like torchuring myself here listening to really depressing songs, like all my life by k-ci and jojo. ugh. i feel so sick. love really bites. yesterday when i passed out when i was drunk. i wish i never woke up. i really hate love. i keep thinkin about him and everything. he makes me feel like im a shity girlfriend. well let's say was because now we're not together. i was already planning out the prom and spring break. i found this cute little hotel in puerto rico in isabella. i was aleady looking at dresses, asking my grandpa what's a good limo company for our limo, since he's a driver. i applied to schools in new york, so i'd be close to him. now i have no reason to be here. god i still love him, even though this shit happened. i'll probably always have a feeling for him. he was really my first love. seven more months of new york and then im gone. either florida or cali. i think i'll go to florida, i don't want to follow my family. well im done.
Took out a lot of shit that was originally there.. but who wants to hear that sad shit.. its the past |
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| TOOK THIS FROM NIKKI... |
[Jan. 23rd, 2005|12:41 pm] |
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| | Deftones-Inhabia | ] |
. Who are you? -
2. Are we friends? -
3. When and how did we meet? -
4. Do you have a crush on me? -
5. Would you kiss/hug me? -
6. Will you give me a piggy-back ride next time we meet? -
7. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. -
8. Describe me in one word. -
9. What was your first impression of me? -
10. Do you still think that way about me now? -
11. If I was an animal, what would I be? -
12. Are you sure you know me? -
13. When's the last time you saw me? -
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? Please elaborate. I want details. -
15. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you? - |
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| woooot! |
[Jan. 18th, 2005|11:06 pm] |
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| | excited | ] |
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| | ashanti-only you | ] |
tina is glowwwwing! i am soooooo happy. Everything seems like it's getting better with sean..YAY!!!.. i saw him sunday, monday, and today :)!! Today i went to his casa, which was lots and lots and LOTS OF FUN! lol..ANYWAYS.. when i was over, and laying in his bed with him, i had this feeling that i was getting closer to sean again.. i love when i see him.. i get all excited and happy! i think things from now on are going to get better.. i love this boy!!! i CANNOT wait for prom woooot!lol seans going to see how rye people are when theyre drunk.. THE RYE GIRLS TURN INTO LIL WHORES!.. well that's what i heard from the last prom.. everyone was hooking up.. ewww GRIMY!.. OMG MY HOUSE IS SOO HOT IM DYING AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!.. well school is eh.. cant wait till that is over with.. and then college woooooot!!!!.. im excited.. i think im going to start workin bak at cosi bc i NEED money for spring break and for prom. also my booooootiful apple laptop.. well i go.. im tired ughhhhhhh
*tina |
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| unhappy.. |
[Jan. 17th, 2005|12:38 am] |
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| | depressed | ] |
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| | damien rice- the blower's daughter | ] |
tonight i saw the movie "closer" wit mark, natalie, and her bf gene. all i need to say is that that movie made me depressed, and disgusted in myself. and now i keep crying. it made me think about what i did to sean, and how i hurt him. and now i know how much he really is hurting inside. i wish i could take back what i did. i regret it so much. there's this song that i'm listening to and it's making me cry. its called the blower's daughter. i wish i could run to sean and hold him and kiss him and not let go of him, and just tell him that i love him, and will always love him, and how truely sorry i am for causing his heart so much pain. now that i have another chance i will show him how much i really do care about him. i hope he knows how i feel. im crazy about sean
Damien Rice
The blower's daughter
And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new
i love you sean collins <3<34*23*03<3<3 |
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| idk |
[Jan. 10th, 2005|07:08 pm] |
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yeah so. i hate rye and i want to leave. i just can't wait to be out of high school and on my own. i'm so sick of this school. there's like only a few people i can stand. like the one person i feel closest to is michelle. i feel like i can't trust other people b/c everyone at that schools LOVES to gossip. i just want to go *POOF*.. and be in college. ill take sean and ekkipoo with me. that would be cool. all of us in same apartment would be a lil insane. hah ekka can bring angry john. i wish i had that thing where my bf's best friend went out wit my best friend. then we'd all just get one big place. wooot! but im dreaming now.. ugh. i think theres like 90 something days left of school.. YES!.. i feel bad for nikki. i know exactly how she feels. she just needs to wait till the time is right if she really wants him. b/c right now, wit sara in the picture isn't a good idea. dont worry nikki things will get better! i promise! damn im tired and have a lot of work to do. ahhh must finish college essay then im done! i should hear this week from coastal carolina univ. if im accepted.. im scureeed! i really dont have a first choice school. hmm.. there's one that i REALLY want to go to which is UNIVERSITY OF CALIFORNIA AT SAN DIEGO, but my gpa is not a 4.0 .. im only a 3.28 pooo! not good enuf. but my grades are going up this year yay! that makes me happy :) i just hope things are good this year for me, with friends, family, and seanipoo. him and i are trying to work on things. idk. it was weird on new years i think it was, wally called me. which was really random b/c he never talks to me anymore. i thought he liked katherine or something and was too busy chillin with her peoples who annoy me. id rather not say names but yeah. maybe i should call him and work on our friendship. he was such a good friend. i feel bad for treating him like crap and not calling him at all. we chilled like twice in the summer. i remember we went out wit my friends candy and consuelo .. yeah consuelos bf said i looked like a burn out and a coke head. im like oh thanks! wally better have a our pooch! burnout! lol.. i won a fake fuppy at sportstime and told him to hold it for me. he was a good friend i think ill call him up later tonight or tomorrow. why can't relationship with guys be like the ones in the movies. ugh. when sean and i first went out it was too good to be true. our relationship was perfect. i mean it! he respected me and cared for me soooo much. it was cute, as soon as i got home the phone would ring. he was soooo sweet and write me letters all the time. i miss those. he would never fight with me. he wouldn't even curse around me and if he did he'd apologize. he was the sweetest thing! i want that sean back. i know it's still there. i think he gets mad though when i say i want him to be like that again. i think he thinks that i dont like the way he is now or something. i do, but it's just that i wish he'd do something of the things he did then. wow ok im rambling and i need to do laundry and hw. ugh.. laterzz |
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| emotionally tired |
[Jan. 6th, 2005|11:06 pm] |
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| | Finch~> Without You Here | ] |
i am so lost right now. yes, another entry about sean. But i need to get my feelings out. we just got into a big fight. seems like all we do lately is fight. the thing is we just started going out again. i wanted everything to be perfect. i wanted us to start over. i thought he'd just put jesse behind him, but it seems like every time we fight, he brings him up and then im a slut and a bitch. i really hate being called names. i hate cursing. thats all i ever heard growing up. my mom saying, "you're a fucking asshole, you're a bitch, fuck you" .now uncle, "you think you're getting into college, haha, you're going to fuck up in highschool. you're not going to be anything christina come on." now stepfather, " you're a tramp, you're going to be just like my sister who treated me like shit, you're going to treat you're brother like shit too." theres so much more, but id rather stop there. i always told myself, after seeing my moms relationships, that id find someone special who cares about me, respects me, and is open to hear my every thought. all i want in a guy is someone who won't curse at me, like my family, i want to talk about things, compromise. because when someones screaming at me, calling me every name in the book, i won't listen. i don't want that. but it seems like sean is like that. he won't listen to my thoughts, he says he loves me, but then shows no respect whatsoever, and calls me a bitch, or fuck you, or you were acting like a little slut, or when u go off to college your going to fuck every guy and get drunk. thats not me. i may of done things too early with my previous boyfriend. but i am no slut or bitch. i want this relationship to work so badly. sean is everything to me, but when he treats me like this, i feel like he just doesn't give a shit at all. it's like i can't get through to him. i want us to talk about things. i am not the fighting type. i feel like im letting him walk all over me when he curses at me and tells me im this or that. because i keep quiet. i hate yelling though, because i see my mother face, and i hear her voice. and it makes me sick! every since i was little i was always told "do onto others, as you would want them to do onto you" i heard that in first grade at corpus christi. and that line is very important. i just wish everyone could follow it. but look at the world we live in. i hate it. i hate that people have to lie to me and tell me my boyfriend has cheated on me. or that he hooked up with this one or that one. what did i do to these people to deserve that. its like girls love to be cruel to one another. thats why i have very few girls that are friends, because a lot of hurt me badly in the past. they love to gossip, i do at times, but its like they get some sort of sick thrill out of it. and say mean things to another girl to hurt their feelings, just to make them feel better about themselves. anyway. im getting off topic. i just hope things work out for the best.bak to studying. ugh.
*tina* |
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| im sick!!!!!!!! |
[Jan. 2nd, 2005|10:52 pm] |
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| | sick | ] |
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| | Ashanti- Only You | ] |
today i got to see sean!.. we ... lol.. hmm had fun.. but now i don't feel good.. ugh. i keep sneezing and coughin n have a fever.. i feel like blahhhh.. i wonder if i my dad will make me go to school.. oh i hope not.. DAMN I DIDNT FINISH MY COLLEGE ESSAY.. i must do that like this week or im fucked.. i cant wait for college..i think im stayin in ny.. i dont want to leave yet.. yay friday im chillin wit chris n sean n nicole.. woot.. things might work here.. keeping my fingers crossed!.. well i go ..
sleep time
*dreamin of ma sexii panda |
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| tired.. |
[Jan. 2nd, 2005|12:46 am] |
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| |  loved | ] |
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| | GreenDay~>American Idiot | ] |
whoaaa.. last nite was awesome.. ekka n i were wasteddddd.. n watched soft porn lol.. im back wit sean!!.. i am so happy. i love this boy more than nething. he means the world to me. i wont lose him this time!.. i feel bad.. nikki is sad bc chris is being a douche bag.. ugh .. NIKKI U WILL FIND A BETTER BOY.. dont worry!. eh i no feel good.. my nose is stuffy..... i go
Lyr1c1zT: i cant stop thinkin about you period lol
^I LOVE THIS BOY!
PEACE OUT NUGGETZ! |
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